In my situation right now, I guess doing nothing and saying nothing is the BEST choice ever. I don't want to give a problem to anyone.
Today is the day that he'll finally leave the country for work, maybe 2 or 3 years.. Maybe more.. Maybe less.
And his last few days here were the worst for me cos I don't even know what to feel.
Here's what you don't know, well since we broke up like four months ago, we still see each other once or twice a month. Yea, I know. I don't know what will you call about this kind of connection, but I don't mind now, I was happy when he calls me and wanted to see me. We never talk about our current situation, we just have each other a day or two, and update each other with the things that we have done.
I always wanted him to be happy. And I know one of his frustration is to help his family, and how to do it in an instant way to go to abroad. And the day has finally arrived.
We have plans in seeing each other before he leaves the country. Unfortunately, we're not that lucky. He's busy and I am sick.
Started to feel sad knowing I would never have him when I want him, when I need him. I wanted to let him know how badly I will miss him. But I want to be careful. I don't want to confuse him. If in his part, I'm just nothing, then Why would my words matter. I want to hug him before he goes, to let him feel how I wish I can always do that.. And now it will end. It will end in a very sad way. My heart is broken again the same person No one to blame but me, cos I allow eveything to happen. Now I'm just afraid to be stuck forever. But I will not let that happen. I need to move forward. So this is just the start. This is just the beginning of the so called Letting go..
Good Read:
We hold on tightest to the things that aren't meant for us.
http://thoughtcatalog.com/brianna-wiest/2014/09/we-hold-on-tightest-to-the-things-that-arent-meant-for-us/
