I will always miss you and crave for your presence. I will always look for you and wish to be beside you when I want to, when I need you.
Lowsy, it's gonna be so hard but I know I can do it. I'm sorry for the times that you feel that You don't matter anymore or I don't care for you. It's not true, It will never be. You're the one I only want, like and love. You're special. When I think about love, I just only have you in my mind and my heart. I live for you. I love for you. Things are different now. Things are not blurry, it's clear as the waters from an open sea. I LOVE YOU.
And Love is a choice, and I choose you. There's no other option, but I still want to choose you. Love is a decision, and I have decided to be with you.
Love was never a feeling. Cos feelings change and not easily controlled. It is more than a feeling. More than those butterflies in my stomach, more than those love-hate conversation, more than those fairytale and perfect love story, more than those fictional beliefs, more than Romeo and Juliet, or KathNiel or Xagnes.
I want to love you. Never ending. I love you with all my heart. I love every grumpy face you make, every loud voice I hear. I love how competitive you are, how funny and sarcastic. I love you cos I know you chose me too. You have decided as well to go back to me and love me unconditionally. And it took a one brave soul to lower his pride and ask for forgiveness and love.
I'm proud of you. I'm proud of us. I don't want nothing else but a family with you. Yes, I want to be your wife and your constant enemy for the rest of your life. I will cook for you, even though you'll say it's not yummy, that your version is better. But then you will finish everything. I will continue to talk to you and make plans and dreams with you. I will support you. I will never leave you.
Thank you Lowsy for everything. I will never be a person who I am today if not for you. You made me. I'm stronger, wiser and better version of me because I spent most of my happiness and heartaches with you. You broke me, you fixed me. You patched every crooked road of my heart. Til now, you know I'm still healing and recovering. But I want to tell you, my trust is bigger than my love for you. I trust you with all my heart that you'll never again add a break to heart again.
I will wait for you. I don't mind waiting. We started as a team before, here we are again, working as a team. But we have a different leader now, and it's our Papa Jesus. Leading our life and love. So don't fret, he's always our guidance. I know we can do it. I know we will. So this is the start! Better days!
I love you so much George Hilario!
Always and forever..
Xo,
Js
Missing you are like waves.
And tonight, I'm drowning..
